Neurosis Unite

I’ve been an emotional wreck this week. Sunday night, my boyfriend of near a year shook the foundation. He probably hasn’t realized he awoke my worst fears – even though in the beginning I was upfront about them. He’s older than me, never been married, and I’m his longest relationship. I’ve always been worried about the “flavor” of our relationship in terms of forever. Can he stay interested in me? He’s never given me a reason to doubt until Sunday night.

Give my neurosis a break – I can’t even type this without tearing up.

This week has been insult to injury. I can't decide how to talk to him about it or even if I should. I think I should give it some time and pray time gives me perspective.

Spread Life Out

27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual? In a way, yes. I respect it and hope for that kind of old school happiness. I believe people have no faith in forever. Yes – I’m bitter, um, I mean better and on the way to being healed but I’m disillusioned enough to know it’s a struggle. No one appreciates the value of familiarity – everyone wants something new all the time. Boredom is a disease - people spoiled by the conveniences created by our society. You don’t have to try everything as fast as you can. Forever is a long time to spread experiences over.


Okay - so I went a little far with my answer to this attempt at a fun quiz, but prior slaps to the face this week prove it true. It's that kind of rock you to the core realization that will drive a girl back to blogging. It's been a while but I figure blogging through having a foundation I've put a year of my life on shaken is a healthy enough way to deal with it. I could be drunk, full of pills, and wondering where this blog came from.